My Hair

I spontaneously died my hair black this morning. I made a humongo mess! all over the fricken place. I'm still laughing at myself. Well, not really because of something that happened but that'll be said later in this post.
As I was planning, I woke up fairly early. But it wasn't 6 it was 7:30 and I didn't get done what I was supposed to get done (well, what I wrote down and told myself I had to do) and it's just a bummer that I can never develop a good habit. I always ruin it some how.
I was trying to get a habit down of every morning I would shower, brush my teeth, floss, mouth wash, and get ready for the day. Then I'd walk Sugar and clean the house for my chore and feel proud of myself. I was doing it without much thought because when I put a lot of thought into something and try and figure out the benefits, I ruin it all. I was doing it quite selflessly for a good three mornings and nights, I was starting to see the benefits. My skin was clearing up, the house was looking good, and Sugar was looking light and healthy from the several walks a day. I would usually walk her twice and Joey would walk her once (see, I came up with a way to get money, like a weekly allowance, I'd pick up the house every day, like I've already been doing, and every Friday I'd get $20. As usual, Joey wants what I have and decided he's going to come up with chores to do and get money. I'll explain the rest later.)
But I completely destroyed the routine I was getting going because one night it slipped my mind and I didn't wash my face and brush my teeth before I went to bed. then this morning I didn't take a shower and brush my teeth again, I didn't pick up the house, and I didn't walk Sugar. I'm so stupid. All of that selfless hard work for nothing NOTHING! and I put this thought through me every time I felt like giving up but I just guess today I lost my will power and caved into my wants. At least, AT LEAST, I managed to keep my promise to losing weight and have effectively stayed by a smaller diet. Thank god. I need a perfect body for The Gala performance on August 8th. I think it's partly because my inner thighs have ballooned out since last year. I got so fat, there's stretch marks all over my thighs to prove it. I've gotten a couple of rashes from my thighs rubbing together but this one is the worst. So bad I haven't been in the sun for a few days. I just need to lose this troublesome fat once and for all. I also need to get bio oil to cover up those stretch scars. It looks pretty promising:
http://www.bio-oil.com/en/uses.html



I've seen other blogs about it and have read about it. I was thinking of getting it on my trip to CVS but I didn't know what the bottle looked like and it would have taken me hours to read every front of a beauty product so I skipped it.

So at CVS, I got:



I really can't wait to use the body wash tonight.

So I got a black hair dye and spontaneously died my hair without my mom's help and low and behold it was disastrous. I started off with a towel on the floor so I could sit. I put an old shirt on, I put a towel around my neck to prevent it from staining my neck I got two mirrors so I could see the back of my head whenever I needed, I thought I was allset. So I followed the instructions, I made my hair damp in the bathroom sink. I combed it through. I poured bottles number 1 & 2 together. I mixed the solution up. I squirted it into my hair and rubbed it around. I looked behind me and spots were all over the towel I was sitting on (told you I was thinking smart) I tried to wipe the spots off of my face but I was too late and it was already stained. I waited the 10 minutes and went to the sink. I couldn't wash it out properly in the sink. So I tried running to the kitchen sink and I dripped black spots all over the floor on my way there and back. Then I had no choice and turned the bath on. I crippled over the side of the tub and my whole shirt got soaked in the process. I got it all over the sink, the toilet, the tub, the floor, and the light switch. hahahaha. It was hilarious. I managed to get the messy towels together and changed into a different shirt and cleaned up the best I could.

It was great. Well, after I blow dryed and straightened it with my bangs down. It looks lovely. I think once it all rinses out in the wash since it's non-permanent I'll try another non-permanent color and keep on doing that till the end of the summer. I think I'll do a dark brown next time and then a deep red. All before school starts of course. I love doing stuff like that. Maybe I should be a hair model when I get older? ;]

Well then I read some more of Life As We Knew It. I ended up reading it until 4:58. I couldn't stop. The quotes that they have on the back of the book of how they couldn't put it down and as they were reading it they cried and bit their nails in frustration actually happened to me too. I usually ignore the stupid quotes but they proved to be true with this book. I thought it was immensely sad throughout the whole thing and gosh darn it! If I read all that and they ended up just dying in the end I would've been so friggen pissed. But they were saved and it was fabulous. This book is for school but I'm glad I read it. Read it please if you get the chance!

Then mom came home and it all went down hill. She walked through the door and complained and bitched as usual and then Joey was discussing his allowance and really he didn't even start doing his job till two days ago and it was completely unfair if he got all of his allowance (even though he didn't even so half of his job) along with me because I've been devotingly doing my job every single day. He always does things half ass and expects the full reward in return and my mom's such a push-over she'll let it happen and I always get the shitty hand of the deal every single time and I'm friggen sick of it. So I said "that's not fair." then I told her why and mom said that I was right then of course Joey throws a temper tantrum (he's been doing it a lot lately. I need to have a talk to my mom about it. She needs to start being a hard ass to him or else he's really gunna get bad. Worse then he's being now. Giving in is only making him worse.) I just know he's going to get his way and god damn it I've had enough. If he does things half ass, I should be able to too. It's not fair. So after Joey throws a temper tantrum mom yells. Then she sits down and bosses me to change the channel cause she "can't stand this crappy cartoon shit." and orders me to turn the volume up so I was like "anything else I can do for you Madam?" and she says "I wish I could just have some piece and quiet." and I said, "well I wish that I had a mother that didn't come home from work a total bossy bitch and one that doesn't complain all the time. I wish that I had a brother who didn't throw a temper tantrum every time he doesn't get what he wants." that shut her right up. for once. THANK GOD.

Well yup that's it. Now Joey's giving mom the cold shoulder. I'm going to give mom a pep talk. Tell her she shouldn't take this bullshit from Joey anymore. Don't blame it from him hanging out with people. It's you, you're letting him gets what he wants when he acts this way. If you give him what he wants whenever he does that, he'll always be doing it and it's putting your other children on the back burner and especially for me, it makes my life seem like shit, I'm putting in all of the work and he still gets the benefits. It's suckish. So toughen up and say no. That's that.

ERRRGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!

bye-Lily(:

Bathing Suits

I will be able to post some random pictures I took at the beach once I get them developed. I say random because they can't be pictures of me or my family or the people we were with. So they'll be random. haha

I'm back on my diet, glad to say. I'm counting all of my calories for a whole week and see where it gets me.

I really want to buy a new bathing suit. something like:

I especially like the first one. I haven't had a one piece bathing suit since I was like, well never actually. I guess you could call this a one piece, but it was really like a two piece connected together:

I'll probably run over to Marshalls and Wal Mart later to see if they have anything. can't wait!(:

xoxo-Lily

I Suck At Diets

I truely do. I failed after one day. Oh well.
I had a great day today! We went to the beach and it was amazing. The perfect weather actually. I found a gray hair on my mom and I became very curious about it. I never really learned why people's hairs turn gray so here's an article:
Have you ever watched someone try to cover up gray hair by dyeing it? Or maybe you wonder why your granddad has a full head of silver hair when in old pictures it used to be dark brown? Getting gray, silver, or white hair is a natural part of growing older, and here's why.
Each hair on our heads is made up of two parts:
a shaft - the colored part we see growing out of our heads
a root - the bottom part, which keeps the hair anchored under the scalp
The root of every strand of hair is surrounded by a tube of tissue under the skin that is called the hair follicle (say: fah-lih-kul). Each hair follicle contains a certain number of pigment cells. These pigment cells continuously produce a chemical called melanin (say: meh-luh-nin) that gives the growing shaft of hair its color of brown, blonde, red, and anything in between.
Melanin is the same stuff that makes our skin's color fair or darker. It also helps determine whether a person will burn or tan in the sun. The dark or light color of someone's hair depends on how much melanin each hair contains.
As we get older, the pigment cells in our hair follicles gradually die. When there are fewer pigment cells in a hair follicle, that strand of hair will no longer contain as much melanin and will become a more transparent color - like gray, silver, or white - as it grows. As people continue to get older, fewer pigment cells will be around to produce melanin. Eventually, the hair will look completely gray.
People can get gray hair at any age. Some people go gray at a young age - as early as when they are in high school or college - whereas others may be in their 30s or 40s before they see that first gray hair. How early we get gray hair is determined by our genes. This means that most of us will start having gray hairs around the same age that our parents or grandparents first did.
Gray hair is more noticeable in people with darker hair because it stands out, but people with naturally lighter hair are just as likely to go gray. From the time a person notices a few gray hairs, it may take more than 10 years for all of that person's hair to turn gray.
Some people think that a big shock or trauma can turn a person's hair white or gray overnight, but scientists don't really believe that this happens. Just in case, try not to freak out your parents too much. You don't want to be blamed for any of their gray hairs!

Interesting? I think so!

xoxo-Lily(:

Diet

So I'm officially going on a diet. Starting now. I'm way over weight. I'm 139 lbs and I'm a dancer. So you know, it's embarrassing to be the only big girl in my class. Plus, for the show I have to wear booty shorts and that's not going to look good with the way my legs are right now. So I'm planning on losing anywhere between 20 & 30 pounds in 30 days. Can I do it? Let's hope so!

TTYL

-Lily(:

Bored

I have to wait for the kitchen floor to dry since I just mopped it. I'm bored. I decided to finally finish my cleaning and get a move on. I have dance later from 5:30-7 and then I'm gunna take a shower and watch SYTYCD! I can't wait! I love that show. =]

I really hope it turns out to be nice and sunshiney on Friday or tomorrow. Because tomorrow I would love to go to the pool and Friday we are supposed to be doing an all day beach trip but it may not happen due to the weather.

See Ya!

-Lily

Her Diamonds

Oh what the hell she says

I just can't win for losing

And she lays back down

Man there's so many times

I don't know what I’m doin'

Like I don't know now

By the light of the moon

She rubs her eyes

Says it's funny how the night

Can make you blind

I can just imagine

And I don't know what I’m supposed to do

But if she feels bad then I do too

So I let her be

And she says oooh

I can't take no more

Her tears like diamonds on the floor

And her diamonds bring me down

Cuz I can't help her now

She’s down in it

She tried her best and now she can't win it's

Hard to see them on the ground

Her diamonds falling down

She sits down and stares into the distance

And it takes all night

And I know I could break her concentration

But it don't feel right

By the light of the moon

She rubs her eyes

Sits down on the bed and starts to cry

And there's something less about her

And I don't know what I’m supposed to do

So I sit down and I cry too

And don't let her see

And she says oooh

I can't take no more

Her tears like diamonds on the floor

And her diamonds bring me down

Cuz I can't help her now

She’s down in it

She tried her best and now she can't win it's

Hard to see them on the ground

Her diamonds falling down

She shuts out the night

Tries to close her eyes

If she can find daylight

She’ll be all right

She’ll be all right

Just not tonight

And she says oooh

I can't take no more

Her tears like diamonds on the floor

And her diamonds bring me down

Cuz I can't help her now

She’s down in it

She tried her best and now she can't win it's

Hard to see them on the ground

Her diamonds falling down

Her Diamonds by Rob Thomas

xoxo-Lily(:

Rain, Rain, Go Away!

I can't believe it's raining! My pool plans are now foiled and it's wicked disapointing :/ Last year I hated the pool. Everything about it was annoying. The water was too cold and it took a while to get used to, the sun was too hot to tan, I couldn't read because my hands would get sweaty from the heat and my book would be annoying to handle, and the sun would shine right in my eyes and I couldn't wear sunglasses or else I'd get that odd sunglasses tan on my face. But this summer I discovered the art of floating and the pool is getting a heater. Just my luck huh? last summer, every day was nice and sunny and I hated being outside, this summer I love being outside and it's rained every single day except for 6 and 4 of those days the sky was covered in rain clouds so there was no sun. This sucks big time. This ironic shit always happens to me.
I didn't even think about the pool job! Watch, once I get the job, it'll rain all day every day for the rest of the summer and there will be no point in getting it. My mom got 6 passes for Six Flags for the first time and I bet we're not going to be able to use them because of the rain. Our plans for camping will be foiled. I wish this summer weather was last year cause my last summer sucked and that last year's summer weather is this year because I have a lot going on this summer. ):
Sad day for me. I still need to clean though and do laundry so it kind of forces me to do that stuff because it's raining. Now i'm going to stall because I don't have the option of going to the pool later so I have nothing to look forward to besides cleaning and that is not something to look forward to. Oh poopy, this is a downer day.

catch you later,

xoxo -Lily

Cleaning

I did intense cleaning today. I worked from 11-4 straight on without a pause and it was all gut work so it doesn't look like I even did anything. Tomorrow I'll do the easy work like vacuuming and dusting and wiping down and it'll be done and I'll get my money!

I ended up skipping on the pool. Silly me thinking I could do all the cleaning in one day. I did go for a little dip though with my mom when she got home from work. She's actually thinking of doing some yoga. She hopes it will allow her to get her exercise with minimal joint discomfort (she has rheumatoid arthritis) and I want to do yoga too and so we're going to go together on Saturday mornings.

This girl working at the pool is slacking off and she's bound to get fired and my mom put in a good word with the pool people and once she gets fired, I get the job. I have to go in and clean the pool before 10:00 when the pool opens. So on Saturdays I'll wake up around 7, get dressed for yoga, clean the pool, and go to yoga. I love being busy so it sounds like a good plan to me!

Oh yeah, I never thought about this but any requests for my music ipod over here? Let me know!

xoxo-Lily(:

Clean Clean Clean!

I have to clean today. I really don't like cleaning. It's not fun at all. I will try though. I hope I can get my room cleaned, it's a disaster. My mom said she's gunna give me 30 bucks if I clean the whole apartment and get it done before she comes home from work. She wants me to scrub the bathtub too. ): not fun.
OK so it's 9:45 and my mom gets home from work at 5. & cleaning is boring so I'll be taking a bunch of breaks. I think I'll start at 12 and I want to go to the pool today so I'll go to the pool at 11. That gives me 2 hours and 15 minutes to continue blogging.
Sounds like a plan. (:

http://www.puzzle-nonograms.com/
Have you tried these types of puzzles?
They're super fun once you get the hang of them. I've been playing them practically every day. They really work your brain too. Especially at first. Don't give up! Figure it out. You'll find out all of these strategies and stuff and feel really proud once you do.

sooo bored

Man am I bored. I can't believe this. I've searched for hours again and found nothing. Hmph. I'm looking for personal blogs that are interesting and fun. Like mine (:
But I can't find anything and it's starting to become an issue. I really hope I fall on something by accident. That would be great.